There's a Plan For Us

I'm gonna be honest, high school isn't fun at all. I want to graduate. I'm ready to be done and I'm starting to fall into the trap of sleeping in almost everyday. I enjoy my performing arts classes, still am keeping all my grades B+ and above, so I always tell myself "your grades are good why go?" Update on my life from the last time: I got a job at Kohls which I actually just got the other day! I've applied at USU. and while at college day I had a really cool experience. So at the beginning of the day you choose 3 colleges you'd like to visit so I chose 1. USU (because it was my favorite and I thought I was dead set on that choice) 2. University of Utah (backup plan) 3. BYU (didn't want to go there at all, but went because I didn't have any where else to!) so while in the BYU presentation, a very powerful yet amazing feeling came over me, one that I don't get very often, an answer to my prayer. And I simply got this feeling of "apply to this school, you need to apply for this school" now, when I went into this presentation I really didn't want to go because -a) I thought I couldn't get in because I'm not smart enough and b) if I went there it would feel like mom and dad were still there giving me rules (not at all it's just basic lds rules I follow anyways!) and who knows if I will get in, but for some reason I need to apply. Who knows what the future holds for me. I can not wait to be at that point in my life, it is what is semi powering me through school. Although I am exhausted and stressed 99% of the time. God has a plan for us all, great things are in the works. Oh 226 days until graduation! Hopefully that flies by. Did I mention my wisdom teeth are coming in?

Life is Moving so Fast

A lot has happened in the last couple of weeks, those things being our first two performances as madrigals, tryouts/callbacks for the musical, the cast list being posted, our first theatre social, and homecoming. Now that isn't all in order of events but man it's gotten so crazy!! I've almost been in school for a whole month and it doesn't even feel like it! We've performed two times for madrigals once at the hello assembly and the other at the homecoming game, and I know I've said this before but I just love madrigals so much!! Singing is amazing and when I do it I feel so relaxed but then excited! Now the theatre social it was just an opening with all performing arts and I planned some games for everyone to get to know each other and go out of their comfort zone!! It was pretty good! Tryouts and callbacks oh man! So hectic but awesome they last a week, they have singing/acting auditions two days, then dance auditions, then post callbacks Thursday and the cast list is posted Friday. So I did pretty well at this try out this year, probably the best out of all 3 years! I got a callback for Aunt Eller the part I wanted so I was pretty excited to have just gotten to that point. I didn't end up getting the part but ended up getting ensemble with a name and a featured dancer (I don't think they know I can't dance! Eek!) So I get a few parts where I get to sing, I'm pretty excited!! 

Homecoming was this past Saturday and it was pretty fun, I got to go with Brenon! Through all of the plans not going to plan and me ordering a sale called "caprese" that ended up just being tomatoes, cheese, and dressing (hate tomatoes) it was all pretty great! 

Now on to this Thursday which is college day. Woah it makes it seem so much more real and so much more scary. I can start applying for college, scholarships, and financial aid. Craziness! Life keeps on moving at its own pace, sometimes faster than I want it to, but I'm sure ready for whatever life throws at me! 

Living Life With No Regrets

Ive been thinking a lot lately, about various amounts of things but one of the things that continues to always be a reoccurring thought is how people always say "I regret so many of the things  I did last year" and all I can ever think is why? Why do you regret it? I mean sure there are some things you do and you just want to forget they ever happened, but it's even those tiny small little things that can change your life, sometimes in a big way sometimes in a small way. But in the long run all of those "years you wish you could forget", mistakes, and simple things you've done have led you to the very spot you are in your life right now. Now maybe you think this doesn't apply to you because you are at a bad point in your life, you will overcome that bad point because you'll learn to see the better, and most trials well, they don't always last forever. So maybe this bad point in your life will lead you to the person you are in 5-10 years. Just remember one thing for me, don't regret, be proud of all of the things you've done, because every single or of those choices has led you to where you are today and the choices you continue to make will lead you to beautiful things in the future. Life will throw unexpected curveballs at you, that sometimes you don't want, but you'll overcome the "curveballs", the bad days, you'll overcome it all, and one day you'll look back and be glad that everything I your life happened the way it did. It was all leading you to a bright future. 

Making the Best Out of Everyday

I'm not gonna lie, lately it's been pretty tough just being happy. I'm not really sure why, no reason behind it.. I'll just have a wave of sadness come over me and I'll have no motivation to do anything. But if there's one thing I've learned in the past year it's that I need to never give up, I need to keep going through the good and the bad. I mean I love school! My classes are very enjoyable and I've actually gotten up on time every day! While I'm at school I've got my mind on other things, but then I get home and it's just frustration, stress, and a lack of motivation. It could be the fact that I'm still adjusting to school and I'm still trying to get my schedule to its normal ness. I don't know, but whatever it is I'm not going to let it affect me and I'm going to continue to put on a happy smile, and make my days good. I've got good family and friends all around me, and I've got the things I love too. So I'll find my happy place (even if it's looking at pictures of it,

cause I love to travel and I have an adventurous heart so occasionally I'll get on Pinterest and pin a bunch of places to go, and it makes me happy) and make the best out of today that I can :)

God Answers my Prayers

Well, today was a fairly decent day!! It's been pretty great! The madrigals got to perform the national anthem and I think we did amazing 😊 Today I also didn't have to go to school until 8:30! Short classes and assembly schedule? Don't mind if I do! 

Anyways about everything from yesterday I didn't end up going to the interview because I didn't feel right about it, zupas did not call, and so far jamba has not either. But the thing is, I'm okay with that for one reason, I told myself before I went to the interviews if I was supposed to get the job I will, and I prayed that if I was supposed to have a job at the time that one of them would work out. So the reason I'm okay with it is because I know in my heart that there is a reason I'm not supposed to be working at the moment! The reason being? I don't know. But it will all work out for the best, and I am grateful that I am able to pray and get the answers I need. God has a plan for me and he knows what is best for me, he will guide me and protect me throughout my life. He will answer my prayers and I know that he is a constant guide. I am so grateful for the gospel and the very important role it's played in my life. 

A Not So Normal Day in the Life of me

Life can get a little hectic, but dang does it make it that much more enjoyable! (At least in this situation!) so today, I was able to go to both of my favorite classes: madrigals and play productions which are advanced choir and theatre classes, both I love to do, they are my passion. Madrigals is especially my favorite because today we got to sing the national anthem (that we will be performing in the assembly tomorrow) and it just sounded so awesome!! The blend, tone, and voices were so beautiful! I wish I could be in that class all day! Singing is the best thing in the world. You know, being in this class is probably the best thing to me because last year I didn't make the class which really got me down, and when I tried out this year I wouldn't even look at the list because I was so worried it would happen again, I had my best friend go and look and when she looked she immediately got a big smile, it's so much more rewarding because I worked so hard for it, it's my greatest accomplishment in my life so far, and I'm so excited to be a part of it!! ❤️ As the day went on things just kept getting better!! I went to English which really wasn't that bad because the teacher is pretty cool, and then play productions where I love to be, because it's a place I can be completely myself with no shame. After I went home I decided I wanted to make a call to zupas because we've been playing phone tag and I decided I would try one more time! And she answered and me being who I am I was surprised I didn't get the machine so... Well I hung up 😐 then I called her back, and told her I was sorry I lost service... Then I accidentally applied for a job at Freddy's in midvale (funny how that happened actually) I was on snagajob and it didn't tell me it was a one click apply and I was trying to find out more info, well I guess I applied for the job and about 10 minutes later I got a call getting an offer for an interview for tomorrow at 3:30!! I don't know if I'm going or not but still!! Then my mom is having me apply at Kohls and I may have an interview there tomorrow. The crazy thing about of all of this is it's all tomorrow I find out tomorrow if I get the job at Jamba, if I get another interview at zupas, then I have 2 interviews. Well I'm kind of interested to see how this works out. 

Senior Year!!!

I'm not your typical teenage girl. I was actually excited to go to school! I got out of bed early and on time(surprisingly) and turned on my jams and started singing in my brush like it was a mic.. dancing around my room when I... Wait this all sounds too good to be true... because it is. I woke up and got ready, not really sure if I was so ready for school to start or not. So maybe I am the typical teenage girl. First day of school? Ugh. Singing in the morning? My voice doesn't have the capacity for that.(especially that early!) Dancing? I can't do. So that was an obvious thing it wasn't true. School. My last year of high school. Senior year?! Me? Woah. Still as I got in my car to go to school couldn't grasp to the fact this was my last year of high school. The year I had to do everything I wanted to do. "Well here goes nothing" I said as I went through the high school doors and the adventure I call senior year begins.