Living Life With No Regrets

Ive been thinking a lot lately, about various amounts of things but one of the things that continues to always be a reoccurring thought is how people always say "I regret so many of the things  I did last year" and all I can ever think is why? Why do you regret it? I mean sure there are some things you do and you just want to forget they ever happened, but it's even those tiny small little things that can change your life, sometimes in a big way sometimes in a small way. But in the long run all of those "years you wish you could forget", mistakes, and simple things you've done have led you to the very spot you are in your life right now. Now maybe you think this doesn't apply to you because you are at a bad point in your life, you will overcome that bad point because you'll learn to see the better, and most trials well, they don't always last forever. So maybe this bad point in your life will lead you to the person you are in 5-10 years. Just remember one thing for me, don't regret, be proud of all of the things you've done, because every single or of those choices has led you to where you are today and the choices you continue to make will lead you to beautiful things in the future. Life will throw unexpected curveballs at you, that sometimes you don't want, but you'll overcome the "curveballs", the bad days, you'll overcome it all, and one day you'll look back and be glad that everything I your life happened the way it did. It was all leading you to a bright future. 

Making the Best Out of Everyday

I'm not gonna lie, lately it's been pretty tough just being happy. I'm not really sure why, no reason behind it.. I'll just have a wave of sadness come over me and I'll have no motivation to do anything. But if there's one thing I've learned in the past year it's that I need to never give up, I need to keep going through the good and the bad. I mean I love school! My classes are very enjoyable and I've actually gotten up on time every day! While I'm at school I've got my mind on other things, but then I get home and it's just frustration, stress, and a lack of motivation. It could be the fact that I'm still adjusting to school and I'm still trying to get my schedule to its normal ness. I don't know, but whatever it is I'm not going to let it affect me and I'm going to continue to put on a happy smile, and make my days good. I've got good family and friends all around me, and I've got the things I love too. So I'll find my happy place (even if it's looking at pictures of it,

cause I love to travel and I have an adventurous heart so occasionally I'll get on Pinterest and pin a bunch of places to go, and it makes me happy) and make the best out of today that I can :)

God Answers my Prayers

Well, today was a fairly decent day!! It's been pretty great! The madrigals got to perform the national anthem and I think we did amazing 😊 Today I also didn't have to go to school until 8:30! Short classes and assembly schedule? Don't mind if I do! 

Anyways about everything from yesterday I didn't end up going to the interview because I didn't feel right about it, zupas did not call, and so far jamba has not either. But the thing is, I'm okay with that for one reason, I told myself before I went to the interviews if I was supposed to get the job I will, and I prayed that if I was supposed to have a job at the time that one of them would work out. So the reason I'm okay with it is because I know in my heart that there is a reason I'm not supposed to be working at the moment! The reason being? I don't know. But it will all work out for the best, and I am grateful that I am able to pray and get the answers I need. God has a plan for me and he knows what is best for me, he will guide me and protect me throughout my life. He will answer my prayers and I know that he is a constant guide. I am so grateful for the gospel and the very important role it's played in my life. 

A Not So Normal Day in the Life of me

Life can get a little hectic, but dang does it make it that much more enjoyable! (At least in this situation!) so today, I was able to go to both of my favorite classes: madrigals and play productions which are advanced choir and theatre classes, both I love to do, they are my passion. Madrigals is especially my favorite because today we got to sing the national anthem (that we will be performing in the assembly tomorrow) and it just sounded so awesome!! The blend, tone, and voices were so beautiful! I wish I could be in that class all day! Singing is the best thing in the world. You know, being in this class is probably the best thing to me because last year I didn't make the class which really got me down, and when I tried out this year I wouldn't even look at the list because I was so worried it would happen again, I had my best friend go and look and when she looked she immediately got a big smile, it's so much more rewarding because I worked so hard for it, it's my greatest accomplishment in my life so far, and I'm so excited to be a part of it!! ❤️ As the day went on things just kept getting better!! I went to English which really wasn't that bad because the teacher is pretty cool, and then play productions where I love to be, because it's a place I can be completely myself with no shame. After I went home I decided I wanted to make a call to zupas because we've been playing phone tag and I decided I would try one more time! And she answered and me being who I am I was surprised I didn't get the machine so... Well I hung up 😐 then I called her back, and told her I was sorry I lost service... Then I accidentally applied for a job at Freddy's in midvale (funny how that happened actually) I was on snagajob and it didn't tell me it was a one click apply and I was trying to find out more info, well I guess I applied for the job and about 10 minutes later I got a call getting an offer for an interview for tomorrow at 3:30!! I don't know if I'm going or not but still!! Then my mom is having me apply at Kohls and I may have an interview there tomorrow. The crazy thing about of all of this is it's all tomorrow I find out tomorrow if I get the job at Jamba, if I get another interview at zupas, then I have 2 interviews. Well I'm kind of interested to see how this works out. 

Senior Year!!!

I'm not your typical teenage girl. I was actually excited to go to school! I got out of bed early and on time(surprisingly) and turned on my jams and started singing in my brush like it was a mic.. dancing around my room when I... Wait this all sounds too good to be true... because it is. I woke up and got ready, not really sure if I was so ready for school to start or not. So maybe I am the typical teenage girl. First day of school? Ugh. Singing in the morning? My voice doesn't have the capacity for that.(especially that early!) Dancing? I can't do. So that was an obvious thing it wasn't true. School. My last year of high school. Senior year?! Me? Woah. Still as I got in my car to go to school couldn't grasp to the fact this was my last year of high school. The year I had to do everything I wanted to do. "Well here goes nothing" I said as I went through the high school doors and the adventure I call senior year begins. 

Live. Laugh. Love? ❤️

There are so many thoughts rushing through my head as I think about the upcoming school year that starts... TOMORROW! It's crazy to think that I am going to be a senior, and that this is my last year of high school. Time always flies faster than you want it to and as much as I wish I was still in kindergarten playing in the sand and painting cute pictures, well that's too good to be true. Well tomorrow I take on a new adventure my last first day of high school, and I'm just not sure how I feel about it yet.  I've learned to value the memories that I have because as I continue in my life, time keeps going faster! Sooner than I know I'll be going to college and finding my next adventure. So treasure the moments you have now  because time flies, and you don't want to miss anything. Go out and have fun, and maybe take some risks. Because one day you won't be 17 (or however old you are) and be able to experience what you can when you are 17. Live a little. Live . Laugh. Love? ❤️ 

"I Could Get Used to a View Like This"

Being outside is probably one of the best things to me. I want to travel, well I want to go on a lot of hikes and go camping. Nature is my relaxation spot because no matter what the weather is, to me it is always beautiful, relaxing, and calming. Yesterday I was able to go to memory grove park, and then popperton park both which had beautiful views. It's something I would never give up and I want to continue to find more places with beautiful views. My goal for this next year-summer is to hike as many little/big cottonwood hikes. I want to continue to do this because this is my happy spot, my place I can find pure joy, and relaxation(even if I am sweaty), it's something I'll always love even if it may be hard due to my seizures. The sun is one of the leading factors. But one of the things I've learned from my crazy mom is "you don't let it define you, you define it."

I won't let it lead my life and I will continue to strive to do all the things I can do, I will not let it control or change my life too drastically, because I will still enjoy my life. Any ways, being in the mountains will always be one of my favorites, seeing nature and all the beautiful things this world was blessed with is amazing. Nature is my happy place, what's yours? 

Don't Get Wrapped Up.

So many things happen in life and it makes it very easy to get wrapped up in all of it. 

Don't let the troubles and thoughts overwhelm you, which I know is really easy to do. Go to your happy place, wherever that is, and for one minute just relax and take a deep breath. Know that no matter what happens it will all be okay. Realize this is the only life you are given and you can't sit and wallow in self pity over something that's going on in your life. You need to choose to be happy and  you need to choose to live your life to the fullest. Because everything in your life is a choice. Don't let the bad affect you, always find the good. It will take you a while to get to that day where you can push out the negative and move on but I know it is doable. And yes bad days are inevitable, but all I'm saying is you don't have to let them affect you. 

The future is a scary thing.

As I think about it my future and the time to make a lot of important life decisions is rapidly approaching. This is my senior year and after its time to go to college and decide on a career, decide if I'm going to serve a mission, there are so many things coming up faster than I would like. Just when I thought I had it all planned out I start thinking and then my whole "plan" kind of falls apart. I had a plan of going to college at USU or UofU to get my major in physician assisting, but as I think about it I think is this something I want to do for a career? I'd be going to college for 4-6 years to get my degree and do I really want that? There are so many degrees out there and so many colleges and now as soon as it becomes closer to making that decision I don't know anymore. Convienent, right? Well anyways senior year starts in 10 DAYS! Holy guacamole that's so soon! I'm so anxious and nervous but excited!! Well here's to the class of 2016, and here's to hoping this year is the best 😊

August 5, 2015

"When you are with the ones you love you are exactly where you are supposed to be" 

Not every day is easy and occasionally there is something you hear or someone tells you something that you just don't want to hear but you need to hear it to better yourself and get to where you need to be. Don't snap at them, maybe actually take the time to listen and then think about what they said. 

These past few days have been great I've been able to spend some time with my very great friends at my friends mission call opening and this morning at the temple. I realized that they are my second family and all of them may not be in my life forever but for the time being they are here and they make me so happy. They lift me up in times of hardship and they treat me good and don't make me feel left out. 

No one will quite understand the feelings I have as I sit in the temple and am able to baptisms for the dead. It's such a special feeling and it has such a special place in my heart. It's something that will always stand out to me and I'll always love and support. The temple is a place of peace and you can't help but feel the love of your savior as you sit and get to partake and help perform blessings. It's truly just the best thing I have in life. I was able to finish 2nd Nephi today which I haven't done ever without my family. I'm not finished with the Book of Mormon but I'm making progress and as I continue to read and go to the temple and continue going to church I feel of my saviors love and continue to grow a stronger testimony every day. 

Thankfulness

Being thankful for the little things in life is what is really important to me. It's important to me because when there are things that are going wrong in your life you need to realize the small things. 2 things that I am grateful for today are; 1. nature. How beautiful it is. I had the opportunity to go on a 5 mile hike with my stake priests and laurels, it was pretty hard but the thing it made me realize is how important it is to persevere to the end, as hard as it may get you need to keep going. I can compare this to my life there may be parts where life is rocky and hectic but you have to continue to the end even if at one point you end up on your hands and knees crawling up to your final destination. Life and the plan of happiness is important and you need to do what you can to get there. Nature showed me this, and I am thankful for it and the beautifulness it surrounds me with and calms me with. I am thankful for gods great gift. 

The second thing I am grateful for is people who have integrity. Today after my hike as I was riding down the ski lift I dropped my bag with my very expensive sunglasses, and instead of people leaving it, walking over it, or taking it for themselves they were kind enough to return it lost and found where I could find it.

So please find the good and be grateful they may not be things that stand out thy may be things you have to look for, but I promise if you do it will help in the long run. :)